In Memoriam: Sri Kaleshwar Swami – 15 March 2012

Today, we received the sad news that our spiritual teacher, Sri Kaleshwar, had passed away (taken maha samadi). He'd been ill for the last few years, and very recently had been admitted to a Bangalore hospital in serious condition.

Sri Kaleshwar was my teacher and guru since 2005. I'm not going to get into any of the political controversies in which he was involved over the years, or anything negative. This is not the place for such things.

He spent much of his adult life helping others, building hospitals, giving away free medical care and food to thousands, digging water wells for Penukonda village, restoring sight to the cataract-blinded, sponsoring formal weddings for the poor, financing full scholarships, and donating hundreds of bicycle wheelchairs to the crippled. To aid in this effort, and to make it possible to share his spiritual teachings with the West, he built a modest ashram in the village of Penukonda.

He was a good man.

When he wasn't involved in charity, or being a loving father and husband, he was teaching thousands of students, men and women from around the world — students from Europe, America, Japan, and many other lands. Never once did he say that he was a spiritual master deserving of worship, riches, or adulation, or that only through him could answers be found, but instead always told his students they had as much potential or more to go on and do far greater things, that everybody has the capacity to become Enlightened. He frequently opened his talks with the greeting, "My dear Divine Souls…" Always he insisted his personal goal wasn't to collect students but to create spiritual masters.

He also often said he wasn't anybody special, but just a guy who knew a little more than the rest of us about certain things, and it was his job and sworn duty to share them with us.

Sri Kaleshwar's message was not limited to devotees of the Hindu faith. Often, he would use the terminology and concepts familiar with Christians, Buddhists, and Muslims, depending on his audience. The Penukonda ashram features a large temple devoted to Shirdi Baba — another Indian spiritual leader who insisted he followed all religions and none, and one of Sri Kaleshwar's favorite sayings was, "Many candles–all one flame."

I had the great honor to meet Sri Kaleshwar in late 2005, here in the U.S. To say I came away from the experience changed would be an understatement, and it was upon his personal invitation to us that my wife and I traveled to India a few months later to study at his ashram in Penukonda, Andra Pradesh, in India.

Our time in India was, to say the least, an adventure — amazing, but also gruelling at times. It's not easy learning the discipline of focused spiritual study, especially for someone as inherently undisciplined as myself, but the three years we spent there have never been regretted by either of us.

(It was also a tremendous joy to get to know the Indian people and culture. Their kindness, generosity, and infectious good cheer is a joy to behold. It seems they are constantly finding ways to celebrate life.)

We were both changed, deeply and profoundly. For myself, there were a number of transformative experiences and events during our stay, but one in particular — a day when Swami wasn't even there at the ashram — literally changed my perspective such that I knew I was no longer the same person. I suppose some might consider it an Enlightenment experience. All I know is I have never since seen the world as I did before, and in the days following this particular awakening, I told my teacher, "You have given me everything you ever promised, and more. It's going to take me years to process it all. Thank you."

He just grinned and said "You're welcome."

The last time my wife and I saw our Swami in-person was in the autumn of 2009, after we'd returned to America and resettled in New Mexico. This was at an event in Laytonville, California, and to this day I still fondly remember him spotting us sitting on a small hill, looking up with a little surprise and a smile, and giving us a friendly wave. "I see you," was all the look and wave said, and it was all we needed.

In an odd way, Stephanie and I came away from that Laytonville event knowing that whatever time our Swami had left in this world, it would most likely be for other students, not us. Our Swami's teachings had already filled our cups completely to the brim and overflowed.

The picture at the top of this post is how I best remember my Swami, my Guru-ji, despite having seen hundreds of photos of Sri Kaleshwar over the years. A direct, eye-to-eye compassionate gaze, with just a hint of amusement. Eyes that could see into a person's very soul.

While we were at the ashram, my wife Stephanie took a great many photographs, and I assisted with video production and writing projects — and as such, I like to think we gave back a little in gratitude. It was an honor and a privilege to have known Sri Kaleshwar, the man, and to have learned directly from him.

This is how he also lives on, in all of his students, and in the ashram he built. Even if the place, the ashram itself, should one day be gone, the lessons — Sri Kaleshwar's teachings — will live on, in us.

Namaste, Guru-ji. Namaste, my teacher and my friend.

Om Shanti Shanti Shanti-hi

Loka samastha sukino bhavanthu
Loka samastha sukino bhavanthu
Loka samastha sukino bhavanthu

Aki landa koti Brahma dhanaiya ka
raja di raja yogi raja parabrahma
Sachidananda samat Sat Guru Sri
Bhagawan SRI SAI KALESHWAR Swa Maharaji K


Om Shanti Shanti Shanti-hi


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12 Responses to In Memoriam: Sri Kaleshwar Swami – 15 March 2012

  1. Andrea Williamson says:

    Thank you Becca. I was the lucky one of us to capture this photo. It was towards the end of the 90 day program. Big blessings and love to you both. See you soon.

  2. Becca says:

    Thank you for identifying yourself as the photographer, Andrea, appreciate it.

    There are a great many photos of Swami that I love, including a number taken by my lovely wife, but this was one I hadn’t seen before. It really does capture his essence. Many kudos to you.

    (Side comment for visitors: Please know that comments from unregistered users are held in a moderation queue, until I can get around to processing them.)

  3. Imke says:

    Thank you Becca.

  4. Shruti Micaela Götz says:

    Thank you Becci!!!!

  5. Alx says:

    omdear, I was wondering how you two were surfing the news and experience of this samadhi. it’s beautiful to read your lovely words, and feel your heart.

    huge love to you,


  6. Racer says:

    Hi Becca,

    Just read this blog first time. Really sad to find out about this at such a young age.

    I read his book ‘Teachings of Sri Sai Kaleshwara Swami of Penukonda: Volume 1″ and really helped to shred negative thinking and believe in my inner strength.

    May God bless his soul.


  7. Sherilyn Wolter says:

    I had the wonderful opportunity to study with Swami Kaleshwar at his ashram for a few weeks in the beginning of 2000. It changed me in a profound way also. His sweet, sharp, mischevious gaze was such a piercing challenge to wake up.
    He awakened a love and respect in me for Sai Baba as well as for him. I look often at Sai Baba’s picture and hear the question,”what kind of man are you?” as I heard quite clearly the first time I stood with open heart before the large painting that was near the Baba statue in the temple. i am a woman but the question goes beyond that distinction and is helpful for me to remember to ask it.
    I am so sad and shocked to hear of Swami’s death. He has been an inspiration, a quiet
    delight, and a comfort to me for 11 years. I always assumed I would see him again. I will, of course, always have him in my heart.

  8. Paula Bradley says:

    Thank you for you thoughtful words Becca
    You were lucky to have time with Swami. You recognize what is real without being overcome with doubt, a great accomplishment, and not an easy path

  9. Becca says:

    Thanks, Paula. *HUGS*


  10. Juleann B says:

    I just returned from Penukonda after the 1st anniversary maha samadhi celebration of Kaleshwarji’s life. He brought unbounded divine love, light, truth and joy into our lives – and we all have so much – including the gift of one another. :) I remember he said in the weeks right before his maha samadhi last year that we will know the power of what we received when we implement and share what we received. Thanks Becca for your website, sharing your experiences and keeping the lights burning through giving the ancient teachings that are priceless. Sending you big hugs and love to you both from Los Angeles.